The other night I went to a church activity for women.  They provided a nursery for the kids run by the young women.  I was worried about leaving the kids even for an hour but when my kids were the only ones and there were 6 girls I figured they would be okay.  Throughout the evening I could randomly hear Deeds screaming and laughing through the halls so I would slowly walk out of the room and check on him.  Once I found him almost to the doors of the chapel headed outside, he was alone but then seconds later one of the girls came running out of the room and promised they would sit by the door so he couldn’t get out.  All in all I got up and checked on them 4 times because of his antics in the hallway, and I didn’t want him making it out that door.  Which he would have if I hadn’t caught him that one time.

I actually enjoyed the time out and the kids seemed to have a good time.  At the end of the evening however another mother came up to me and told me I needed to relax about the kids.  I smiled and then went home.  Over the next two days I thought about what I wanted to say but didn’t.  Here it is:

I would love to be able to relax, however Deeds safety depends on me not relaxing.  When I joke that he is Houdini it is because he has escaped from us many times, especially when we relaxed because we thought he was safe.  I don’t go anywhere without first thinking about him and what it would take to keep him safe.  When I can hear him in the hallway it would be irresponsible for me not to go make sure he hasn’t escaped on his own, and I know this because he has from me many times, and I’m his mother.  So while I would LOVE to relax, currently I can’t.  Hopefully in October when he gets his service dog I can a little.